remember 5 things before another 5

aahh..

i wont delve into the other 4. I will just concentrate on one of them 5.

Health before illness. Well, although pregnancy is not really an illness, now that i am 32 weeks plus, it started to feel like one.

Yesterday, driving to work, I almost fall asleep behind the wheel. My back is aching like nobody's business. I feel energy-less all the time. My calves cramping at night waking me up. O, and not including the waking up in the middle of the night to the ladies room. Its a constant discomfort - the band of my trousers, or the my clothings- everyting. O, and the weight I am carrying with me everywhere I go.
In conclusion; its a phase of aching, tiredness, sleepiness, and discomfort. For another month and a half.

This makes me wonder how on earth my mother went through this 7 times? With small children to chase around too? I am thankful that my mother is who she is. Without her, I probably cry my eyeballs out and shout at all the stupid cars that cut the line (when queing for the contra lane on LDP) ugh!

I am thankful to God, for without Him, I might have lost my sanity. And I am holding on to His reminder, " after each trials, there is relief". I am reminding myself that patience is a virtue, meaning more plus points to bring me to heaven. I am reminding myself that I can actually die during labour, and I dont want the last memories my family have of me are the shouting crazy me. And I dont want my child to feel the stress of this worldly life even before s/he's born.

And also, I should be thankful for having this chance to become a mother. There are millions of women out there who have perhaps tried for many years, to no success in concieving.

I hope I can survive this 1-ish month more of trials, and finally be blessed with a health, happy, perfect little angel. Amiin :)