How nice life would be without having to worry..
Being in a state of worrying is probably worse than hunger, and thirst, and heat. It's this constant headache and frowns and "what-ifs" and "if-nots"...
Although God has reminded us to not worry, and leave it all to Him. The whispers of satans have maanged to successfully creep out this worry of my head.
"where to place my baby for care during office hours when I'm at work after confinement ends"
With the news constantly popping out with babies neglected, and abused, and left to starve under the so-called-'care' of irresponsible nurseries/babysitter, it does not leave me in peace knowing that I have to do the same for my child once he/she reached mere 3 month old!
I have tried googling and searching for the right place and now I arrived to this plea " please Allah send me to the right person/home/nursery and please protect this unborn child against all evil and bad things. amiin "
People used to be less intimidating and more trustworthy before. Looking back, lets say, 30 years ago, such problem didnt exist or rarely heard of. because peple used to have conscience and kindness. I wonder what have happened to the world today. Have everyone strayed so far away from God that they are willing to commit such sins to innocent kids?
I pray that my loved ones are protected from their evils, and hopefully their past evil-ness will be pardoned and they will repent.
Monday, 7 February 2011
alhamdulillah
My parents and 3 siblinsg aer safely home from Egypt!
It is such a relief, alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah. After hours of air tickets searching and booking and researching, we managed to put all 5 of them on a flight back home 3 days ago. :)
In trials and difficult tinmes, we will always seek God. In prayers, in thoughts, in everything we do, we will chant His name. But, in easier times, its so easy to forget Him, astaghfirullah. I am now reminding myself to be in a state of constant attachement to Allah. No matter in good/bad health, in danger/safety. It is Allah we turn to.
I hope He wont forget me too. I hope He is constantly watching over me, guiding me and protecting me from all the evils in this this world. I hope all my decisions are from Him, for He knows me better than I do. And I hope He is guiding my decisions now to be closer towards Him in the afterlife. for this life on earth is a mere blink of of an eye.
And i want eternity of happiness :)
til then, remember God and death. The short Life now is for us to prepare for the better later.
It is such a relief, alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah. After hours of air tickets searching and booking and researching, we managed to put all 5 of them on a flight back home 3 days ago. :)
In trials and difficult tinmes, we will always seek God. In prayers, in thoughts, in everything we do, we will chant His name. But, in easier times, its so easy to forget Him, astaghfirullah. I am now reminding myself to be in a state of constant attachement to Allah. No matter in good/bad health, in danger/safety. It is Allah we turn to.
I hope He wont forget me too. I hope He is constantly watching over me, guiding me and protecting me from all the evils in this this world. I hope all my decisions are from Him, for He knows me better than I do. And I hope He is guiding my decisions now to be closer towards Him in the afterlife. for this life on earth is a mere blink of of an eye.
And i want eternity of happiness :)
til then, remember God and death. The short Life now is for us to prepare for the better later.
Tuesday, 1 February 2011
Trials and tribulation
This is not good,
My parents and 3 siblings are in Egypt at the moment, amidst all the riots, gunshooting, prison breaks, and rallying! May Allah's protection be upon them, for He is the Best Protector.
A part of me feels sorry for them, because they've spent a fortune to travel and do all sorts of touristy stuff, but ended up in curfew and in danger.
Another part is relieved that they are still safe, unharmed and together. (better than being alone)
Also I am torn between feeling angry and supportive towards the people of Egypt. Angry because they are causing unwarranted danger for all the innocent tourists, and the women and children. They've not think of a better, easier, nicer, more diplomatic way if negotiating their freedom (btw, they should have started from having meetings/ talks/ etc etc with their President). Not straight into this mess.
Supportive because .. it's good for them to want something else for their life. Something better. Perhaps, it's the means that they should have thought thru a bit better. We are human beings after all. Gifted with brains and vocabs and literature to converse with each other in peace. Use them well before it's too late.
Til then, the rest of my family members are rooted to Aljazeera as never before. lol.
I am praying for their safety and strenght. May Allah be with them, and give them courage, protection, and wisdom. At times like this, I feel blessed we live in a peaceful country.
My parents and 3 siblings are in Egypt at the moment, amidst all the riots, gunshooting, prison breaks, and rallying! May Allah's protection be upon them, for He is the Best Protector.
A part of me feels sorry for them, because they've spent a fortune to travel and do all sorts of touristy stuff, but ended up in curfew and in danger.
Another part is relieved that they are still safe, unharmed and together. (better than being alone)
Also I am torn between feeling angry and supportive towards the people of Egypt. Angry because they are causing unwarranted danger for all the innocent tourists, and the women and children. They've not think of a better, easier, nicer, more diplomatic way if negotiating their freedom (btw, they should have started from having meetings/ talks/ etc etc with their President). Not straight into this mess.
Supportive because .. it's good for them to want something else for their life. Something better. Perhaps, it's the means that they should have thought thru a bit better. We are human beings after all. Gifted with brains and vocabs and literature to converse with each other in peace. Use them well before it's too late.
Til then, the rest of my family members are rooted to Aljazeera as never before. lol.
I am praying for their safety and strenght. May Allah be with them, and give them courage, protection, and wisdom. At times like this, I feel blessed we live in a peaceful country.
Thursday, 27 January 2011
when life is too sedentary
Looking back, life is too relaxing now. Back in the HO days, running around, oncalls is a daily routine. Weight gain was never a problem. But I had so much fun despite the bickering adn complaining at the end of the day.
Now that life is too stagnant waiting for things to happen.. i wish i am back then. But then again, i better becareful what I'm wishing for...
One of my senior colleague sort of advised me to take it easy now and enjoy the days. Go with the flow. Read books. Learn. Maybe she is right. So by the time I start, I hit the ground running :)
But I hope this super long stagnant period of relaxtion will not put my brain, stamina and motivation to halt. I am still young and there are a million things I want to do!
This is human nature. The way we are created is to never be fully satisfied in whatever situation we are in. If we win 1000 bucks, we wished it's 100000. If we got 10 straight As, we wished it's 11As. Wishing for a bigger house, higher salary, better looks, nicer food. And the list is endless!
Please remember to thank God. For He knows what is best for us. Although we thought this is the worst situation ever, it is actually for the best. He created us and have been looking after each and every one of us since we are just a small nutfah. He knows us far better than we know ourselves. Hence, alhamdulillah... in this relaxed situation I am in, I thank You God, for always looking after me and putting me in the best situation possible. Thank you.
Have you said your thanks today?
Now that life is too stagnant waiting for things to happen.. i wish i am back then. But then again, i better becareful what I'm wishing for...
One of my senior colleague sort of advised me to take it easy now and enjoy the days. Go with the flow. Read books. Learn. Maybe she is right. So by the time I start, I hit the ground running :)
But I hope this super long stagnant period of relaxtion will not put my brain, stamina and motivation to halt. I am still young and there are a million things I want to do!
This is human nature. The way we are created is to never be fully satisfied in whatever situation we are in. If we win 1000 bucks, we wished it's 100000. If we got 10 straight As, we wished it's 11As. Wishing for a bigger house, higher salary, better looks, nicer food. And the list is endless!
Please remember to thank God. For He knows what is best for us. Although we thought this is the worst situation ever, it is actually for the best. He created us and have been looking after each and every one of us since we are just a small nutfah. He knows us far better than we know ourselves. Hence, alhamdulillah... in this relaxed situation I am in, I thank You God, for always looking after me and putting me in the best situation possible. Thank you.
Have you said your thanks today?
Friday, 21 January 2011
have i been the laziest blogger in town?
may peace and love be amongst us today, along with Allah's blessings and guidance.
I have to agree if u want to nominate me as the laziest, most out of touch blogger ever. I am ashamed to call myself one as the stark vacancy in the entries deserves a national boo! i apologize. :S
A lot have happened through out the past few months, hence, i shall tell u all about it in numerical order. And of course, all praises to God, for His countless bounty towards me way.
1. I am pregnant! :D
I am now a healthy pregnant mother to iAllah a healthy girl (from the scans- which hopefully not misleading in my case). I have got another 3 months to term, and finding pregnancy a time to reflect on my nonpregnant days. The times when I am not as tired and able to do more for Allah, but then, no thanks to pure laziness and syaitan laknatullah's whispers- ended up not doing as much ibadah! Thinking of those fit slim days, I wish I put a lot more effort and energy into the good things. Haih..
Well, now I just have to chin up and strive hard to do the extra ibadah on top of the wajib ones.. no matter how tired and sleepy my eyes are..
2. I am now a doctor in a university! (trainee lecturer)
After long months of unemployment (personal choice :P ), I am now emplyed and alhamdulillah it's a brilliant job. It will allow me to further my studies in a field I chose next year, which is perfect timing too, because, by then I will have delivered the baby, and completed my confinement. Its wonderful timing, thanks to Allah, for He is the best Planner :) Just leave everything to Him, wo worries, he will sort it out for u and me. All we have to do is try our best, pray hard, and work hard. He will iAllah look after u ;) the way He always look after me.
3. We have found a house to move in by the end of this month iAllah.
Its a lovely house near my workplace, hence, I will be able to commute to work without much traffic jam! (and save on fuel, and be able to not contribute so much towards carbon emmision :D ) *yeay*
At the moment, I am travelling 1 hour plus, up to 1 and a half hour to work, and again the same amount of time spent back from work. Its a hassle! And I was furious at first to not be able to get into this house ASAP after I started work. But again, alhamdulillah, it was a blessing in disguise (hikmah). Last week, this house was broken into and lots of stuff were stolen. Luckily no one was in the house and the tenant only lost a few items of not great value (but it is still a lost to them). I hope that if they are patient, these trials will earn them good deeds and iALlah will help them to enter jannah with ease :)amiin.
These are the big major things that have occurred. I will keep u updated more as time comes, and hopefully iAllah this time, I will make time to write. I have been somewhat preoccupied with interviews, and whatnot for the past few months, but those were over now :) Pray so that we have a blessed life here and after, and more hikmah willcome our way. amiin!
I have to agree if u want to nominate me as the laziest, most out of touch blogger ever. I am ashamed to call myself one as the stark vacancy in the entries deserves a national boo! i apologize. :S
A lot have happened through out the past few months, hence, i shall tell u all about it in numerical order. And of course, all praises to God, for His countless bounty towards me way.
1. I am pregnant! :D
I am now a healthy pregnant mother to iAllah a healthy girl (from the scans- which hopefully not misleading in my case). I have got another 3 months to term, and finding pregnancy a time to reflect on my nonpregnant days. The times when I am not as tired and able to do more for Allah, but then, no thanks to pure laziness and syaitan laknatullah's whispers- ended up not doing as much ibadah! Thinking of those fit slim days, I wish I put a lot more effort and energy into the good things. Haih..
Well, now I just have to chin up and strive hard to do the extra ibadah on top of the wajib ones.. no matter how tired and sleepy my eyes are..
2. I am now a doctor in a university! (trainee lecturer)
After long months of unemployment (personal choice :P ), I am now emplyed and alhamdulillah it's a brilliant job. It will allow me to further my studies in a field I chose next year, which is perfect timing too, because, by then I will have delivered the baby, and completed my confinement. Its wonderful timing, thanks to Allah, for He is the best Planner :) Just leave everything to Him, wo worries, he will sort it out for u and me. All we have to do is try our best, pray hard, and work hard. He will iAllah look after u ;) the way He always look after me.
3. We have found a house to move in by the end of this month iAllah.
Its a lovely house near my workplace, hence, I will be able to commute to work without much traffic jam! (and save on fuel, and be able to not contribute so much towards carbon emmision :D ) *yeay*
At the moment, I am travelling 1 hour plus, up to 1 and a half hour to work, and again the same amount of time spent back from work. Its a hassle! And I was furious at first to not be able to get into this house ASAP after I started work. But again, alhamdulillah, it was a blessing in disguise (hikmah). Last week, this house was broken into and lots of stuff were stolen. Luckily no one was in the house and the tenant only lost a few items of not great value (but it is still a lost to them). I hope that if they are patient, these trials will earn them good deeds and iALlah will help them to enter jannah with ease :)amiin.
These are the big major things that have occurred. I will keep u updated more as time comes, and hopefully iAllah this time, I will make time to write. I have been somewhat preoccupied with interviews, and whatnot for the past few months, but those were over now :) Pray so that we have a blessed life here and after, and more hikmah willcome our way. amiin!
Thursday, 30 September 2010
Ayatul Kursi
"Allah! La ilaha illa Huwa (none has the right to be worshipped but He), the Ever Living, the One Who sustains and protects all that exists. Neither slumber, nor sleep overtake Him. To Him belongs whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on earth. Who is he that can intercede with Him except with His Permission? He knows what happens to them (His creatures) in this world, and what will happen to them in the Hereafter . And they will never compass anything of His Knowledge except that which He wills. His Kursi extends over the heavens and the earth, and He feels no fatigue in guarding and preserving them. And He is the Most High, the Most Great."
Wednesday, 25 August 2010
a very good website
Peace be upon you,
http://wechooseislam.wordpress.com/
I stumbled upon this website whilst websurfing, and alhamdulillah, this may help many of you who are still in confusion and lost from the Right Path.
I never will be able to understand, nor explain how difficult and trying it is for a person to convert and leave their religion, and so, i hope by reading other people's stories, and watching the websites of their talks, iAllah, it will help you.
til then,
may Allah guide with His hidayah, amiin :)
http://wechooseislam.wordpress.com/
I stumbled upon this website whilst websurfing, and alhamdulillah, this may help many of you who are still in confusion and lost from the Right Path.
I never will be able to understand, nor explain how difficult and trying it is for a person to convert and leave their religion, and so, i hope by reading other people's stories, and watching the websites of their talks, iAllah, it will help you.
til then,
may Allah guide with His hidayah, amiin :)
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